So first little C. Cuz let's be honest, he's the cute one in our family. He is now walking everywhere!!! It is sort of a yay/crap situation. I am thrilled for sure, but he is keeping me on my toes! He still adores One Direction, which I'm ok with. They have cute songs, and their music videos aren't nasty so I don't have to worry about him watching it. And I'll be 100% honest, they are fun to look at! ;) he loves daniel tiger, and I'm pretty sure I have every episode on Netflix memorized. he also loves to play with toys. Lately the pots and pans as well. He loves to talk on the phone! The other night while he was supposed to be sleeping, I caught him talking to someone on his binkie. I asked who he was talking to, and he said clue Dave. So he really likes his uncle David. He loves food which isn't a surprise to anyone whose met him. I'm working on taking away the bottle, so any advice on that would be great! He loves chasing other kids at church. Church is hard for me I feel like I never get much out of it. Except last Sunday Micah took him during relief society but I'll tell you how awesome that was in a minute. Carson loves his daddy. He sometimes waits at the door and says daddy ho. Probably meaning daddy home. as soon as Micah gets home I am left in the dust!!
We have been living in vancouver for 6 months now. It is seriously been hard for me, I won't lie. Luckily I've made some pretty awesome friends here. But I have found myself being a negative Nancy. I kept thinking, why are we here? Why am I being punished? I was taken away from my nice home, my family, my friends, my ward that I loved, and all the things I'd always been familiar with, and then moved to a place with the strangest people on the planet, a tiny apartment, and suddenly living from paycheck to paycheck. What on earth had I done to deserve this? Well this Sunday Micah took Carson during Relief Society. Our lesson was from last conference from Elder W. Craig Zwick called "What are you thinking?" 
If you read or can read what it says on my phone, it talks about how sariah may have felt so upset for leaving her things behind and she was upset about it, and didn't feel like things were going great. And how her husband was understanding and comforted her. That's my awful paraphrasing for it. Anyway, I found myself bawling my eyes out because I have found myself in that same situation. Very often lately I have been worried about our situation and questioning Micah, and feeling like things are not going to work out here. And then he reminds me we are here for a reason, and everything will work out if we keep doing what we are supposed to. My husband is seriously wonderful. He has so much faith, and is always reminding me to stay on track. The other night we were doing family scripture study and we're reading in 1st Nephi chapter 7 after we had finishing having a convorsation about my bad attitude. Laman and Lemuel and the two sons of Ishmael and their families were rebelling against Nephi and Sam. Then Nephi puts them/ me in our place. He asks, "How is it that you have not hearkened unto the word of the Lord? How is it that you've forgotten what great things the Lord has done for us? Yea, and how is it that you have forgotten that the Lord is able to do all things according to his will, for the children of men, if it so be that they excercise faith in him? Wherefore let us be faithful unto him."
Then I realized, we are all sort of like Lamen, and Lemuael sometimes. I wish we could be like Nephi because that would be pretty Awesome to have such great confidence and faith in Heavenly Father constantly. Maybe I'm a heathen but I get mad, frustrated,and doubtful when things don't go exactly according to MY plan. And I know I need to put my trust in him, because he knows what I need better than me, but I'm such a control freak that I forget that sometimes. But like it says in those verses how can I forget all of the things he has done for me, and why haven't I turned to him? Micah had pretty much said the same thing to be right before we read this chapter. Apparently someone thought I needed to hear it twice.
So this week I made goals for myself. I have been working out at home and at the gym every day this week. Less tv, more time socializing, more family activities, scripture study every day, family and personal prayer, more music in our lives, and a date with my husband. I figured this would help me stay on track a little better, and be as great as my husband who I wonder if he ever has a flaw. (Just kidding I know he has flaws...just not as bad as mine) I just need to learn to love where I'm at even if there are gigantic spiders everywhere even after I drench our house with pest control I made my husband buy for me. Or if I need to let myself make new friends when I miss my old ones. Even if I miss my big old home. Or if I miss Sunday dinners with my parents and grandma. Or not having to budget.Or lots of other things I miss. This is where I'm supposed to be, and I know that. I know all the things I'm going through are a growing experience. So I need to work harder to have a better attitude, because I have these two amazing people to share this experience with, so why not make the most of it? So here is to a better week, and pray for me that I can keep up my better attitude. :)
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