37 and 1/2 weeks!

i have been a terrible blogger this past 9 months. i think my new years.resolution may be to be better at blogging/ journaling. well friends/family...yesterday at the doctor he said this baby could be any time. before he checked me he was telling me i needed to get a halloween costume because first time moms tend to be late and the week before i hadnt made any progress. when he was checking me.i looked at his face....annnd i honestly thought something was wrong. turns out he was in shock and decided i maybe didnt need that halloween costume after all. i know i could be like this for a few.more weeks but it could also happen.any day. it is so crazy to.me that last year around this same time i had just started to accept we needed to save money and get good.insurance if we wanted a baby. i remember in my interview with gemtek they were talking to me about having.kids and i told them that was a far off expensive adventure we would have to explore later in our lives when we had money. i also planned on going back to school this fall. little did i know that a few moths later id be puking my guts out at work and buying a pregnancy test on my lunch break and then being in shock the next 4 hours of the day. at first it.didnt seem real.because i had thought it was something that wouldnt happen for a loooong time.

now that i am.this close to being a mom. its a little more real. i remember in school getting assignments and thinking wow...thats a lot of work. i cant see myself doing that. (i was a fabulous student obviously) and i.wouldnt do it because generally i had good.enough grades i could get away with it. well this past month ive kinda felt that way. i just cant see myself actually physically having the baby. its scary and its a lot of work. but this isnt really something i can just.....not do. its happening weather i want it to or not. and that terrifies me. but im excited and i cant wait to meet him. i feel like im split in two. its so exciting.but its also one of the scariest things ive ever done. i also keep worrying i wont know im.in labor. im sure i will and contractions will be painful but i always make up a million awful scenerios that could happen in my head. anyway. i truly.feel blessed that i am able to have this baby and i should probably be greatful rather than scared butbi think the scared part is natural.

i am excited to be a mom! and im excited to bring such a blessing into our home. i am so greatful for my wonderful family and friends and ward who has helped us move and done baby showers and just been there to help me. i have an awesome mom who has spent hours of her time making.sure i dont over do it and has made adorable crafts and helped us move!! i feel pretty lucky to have such amazing people in my life!