The past few weeks i have been flabbergasted...thats right flabbergasted. (And i probably spelt it wrong too. ) the one thing i hated about always working so much is that i got behind in current events, and didnt know what was going on in the country/world. Now that i have some time on my hands...im thinking i wish i didnt know.

I guess i live in my sheltered little lds community, but all i can say is wow. There is so much bitterness and hate, people trying to force their beleifs on you. Ummm hello people we live in america, our country is based on freedom. Not "your  A bad person if you dont beleive what i beleive."

I think the thing that bothers me the most is that people attack others beliefs, and some dont beleieve in anything at all. Our beliefs are what make us who we are. They shape our lifestyle, our friends, and activities. No one is supposed to be exactly the same. And one mormon belives a little differently than another mormon because we all understand things different. I feel like everything is party of seeing how weird we can get. And getting upset when people judge us. I will he the first to admit ive done crazy things and knew they were wrong...but what i didnt realize was that if i flaunted it, I left it open for people to judge me.

I loved reading about the christian singer who walked out of the grammys!! What courage it took her. Im sure it wasnt easy, but what a great example of someone who knows who they are. I feel like everyone is lost and dont even have beliefs so they run around criticising everyone who does.

I once dated a guy who didnt grow up with any religion. It made me sad for him. He didnt beleive in anything, and quite often seemed very lost. The longer i dated him, the more lost i felt. I had my beleifs but i wasnt allowed to share them, other than, we live and then we die. True statement, but theres more to life than that.

One thing i have learned and am continuing to learn, is that i do know who i am. I know my purpose is to learn as much as i can while im alive. To have a family and raise strong children who know right from wrong. I know the crazier our world gets, the crazier my beleifs will seem. I know that im a daughter of God, and that he loves me, and every single person on the planet. I know that if i live my standards i will be truly happy. I know that my gifts and talents were given to my by my heavenly father to help and bless others.  i know my trials and adversity are to help me learn and grow. Even though in the middle of it all i sometimes forget.  i know that the savior died for me so that i can make mistakes and have a chance to change. I have had to use the atonement and it truly is a wonderful thing. I am greatful that someone else does truly know what im goinf thru because they have felt every ounce of pain and grief. I know that my goal is to be with my heavenly father again
And to be with my family for eternity.